Friday, September 30, 2016

i am a soldier and i do not want to die

yes man, you are a civilian and i am a soldier.
i just want to live,
for country, for family & and lastly for myself.
its not like i hate the country i am fighting to,
rather i just love my country and i have to save the same.
its not like i hate the person, soldier i am fighting to,
rather i love the people whom i am fighting for.
i just want to ensure the belief of my people i.e. "army is there to protect us"

i joined army, i fought a war with myself in training. i killed my childishness ,teenhood, funky-lookness, college-going-boy-ness in first war.

now i dont snooze alarm for next ten minutes.
i have to rush to a office/field/warzone/morcha where coming late is a crime
and believe me i do not abuse my organisation.

what about you?

i have seen my friend got bullet shot in head and died, i moved forward. i loved him, i love him and i will love him, he lost life and i had to fight to save nation.

what about you? some of you dont care about a person got accident on road and keep passing-by.


i am sitting in Siachin , feeling little-amnesia  due to less oxygen, i have not felt the warmth of hot tea for two months, i am in -40degree temperature,

what about you? are you complaining of improper functioning of AC in office?

i am in Laddakh, no mobile signal here, my family is waiting for a letter of mine.
i am playing cards with my friends, my mobile is kept in beg for 3 months now.

what about you? are you crazy about pokeman-go,reliance jio, and i-phone 7?

 i am holding letter of my wife close to heart, i am smelling her perfume, i am observing her tears over it, i am planning things about the day after 95days.

what about you?  kissing your lover?

i am in Kargil, just watching a picture of my small daughter, i am wondering if i will meet her again.

what about you? your heart skips a beat if your baby cries.


i keep  hearing gun shots, rockets fires, bomb. these are familiar sounds to me.

what about you? Atif aslam's new song drive you crazy?


yes, i have week-offs, i write to home, i eat, i sleep, i enjoy rum.

what about you? watching tv, enjoying home?


i am eating a piece of a biscuit while sharing it with my friends around me. i am happy.

what about you? fighting for a corner seat in bus?


i am watching bodies of my friends around me, i have seen their unspoken expressions in dead eyes.

what about you? thinking a girl giving signals you in the pub?


i am wearing dirty muddy uniform for three days, i havent took bath because of exercise, all i have ensured is my gun is serviceable.

what about you? complaining mumma for a spot on your favorite shirt.


i am wearing this bullet proof jacket and helmet for whole day, i have not taken it down even to wipe my sweat.
what about you? are you buying raybon sunglass to avoid sunlight hitting eyes?


i am enjoying KHICHRI in dinner sitting at ground, and we friends are cracking jokes as its the 5th consecutive night to have same dinner.

what about you? are you complaining mumma for making GHIYA twice in week for you?


i am waiting for the post-mails hoping there will be letter of my girlfriend.

what about you? waiting for Dominoz's guy coming to you to deliver pizza?


i was crawling, hunting a village in Kashmeer with my friends in search of terrorists.

what about you? walking down to park to stare at beautiful faces?


i am saddened by a rape in delhi.

what about you? making a guy hero, who called me a rapist?



i am going the place where i have been told to go by my senior.

what about you? going to watch MS DHONI movie telling you have extra class on saturday?



my leaves is cancelled and so is done with all of my colleagues. i am still happy.

what about you? have you returned a customer telling him the working hour of your office?


 

  i dont know that i will be there to enjoy my tomorrow.so i avoid making memories. i work by command, not by logic. Logics can run a society but not an army. i dont know wrong or right, i just do whatever can save you from enemies.
if i die tomorrow, you guys will cry, will keep me remember for days, months but not years. no, i dont have any problem that you know the exact release date of SRK movies, he is there to entertain you, i am here to protect you. i am here to die for you.
i wear uniform with pride and you wear your cloths with style.
i am being called just a 12th pass non-eligible guy for other jobs, but i  pay tax.
you demand arts from enemy-country, i see girls yelling I LOVE YOU FAWAD. and we are here ensuring that you can yell so freely.

yes, you can do whatever you want. pay thanx to god.
hey, hold on, you are doing anything? pay thanx to a soldier.




blog by- pushpendra naagar